Kelsey's first professional portrait session

So this week Chuck and I took Kelsey for her first professional photo session at KiddieKandids to get her Christmas picture.  And I must say....simply adorable!!  I know every mother says that....it's just so overwhelming for it to finally be my child getting her portrait taken.  I loved every minute of it....even watching the poor photographer try to get her to smile by making the same sound over and over and over again with no results.....ins't that the truest definition of insantiy??  Anyway...she only actually smiled in one shot which we didn't order....because the other shots were just priceless. 

While that was the plus side of our week...the down side was we officially chose a day care to enroll her in starting in January when I have to go back to work full time.  I'm currently working from home for December and going in one day a week.  Fortunately Chuck's store is closed on Tuesday's in the winter so he can watch her that day.  While we feel good about the day care we chose for her, it was a painstaking choice to make just between the different locations but also dealing with the guilt you have as a mother deciding to put her in day care.  Unfortunately, right now it is an unavoidable fact that we have to....but I pray daily that God provide some sort of miracle so that maybe that could change. 

Listen....I know a large ratio of families have to have two incomes to make ends meet and it's hard for everyone and I'm trying not to beat myself up about it....I know it will get easier.  Just dreading the New Year knowing that heartbreaking day is coming.  But this too shall pass.